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Just another 30 something trying to find her way through life while navigating the rough seas of Los Angeles.
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I would like to say that I can think of about a million things I would rather do than go to work today but I can’t. I can only think that I would rather stay in bed and pretend that it’s not time to go yet. But I will go into the office with my great big Human Resources smile painted on my face, asking everyone how their weekend was and telling them mine was “great!”.
Next weekend - no drinking. Seriously. Hiking, beach, exercise, picture taking, a roadtrip…but no drinking. I am slipping…slumping…I am not happy.
Vulnerability is my gaping wound that refuses to heal. It screams insecurity, self doubt and the occasional sense of self loathing. It makes my heart bleed and just when I think I have it under control someone can walk through the door of my favorite bar and remind me, after knowing him only 2 weeks, that this infected sore is something for which there is just no cure. So the beer and the wine to make me feel better about myself, the anti depressants that are meant to keep my anxiety at bay and the cigarettes I swore off of 3 years ago act as agents in a losing battle. I can barely thing of one thing that brings me true contentment aside from acceptance. And what kind of happiness can really be taken away from something so conditional? It’s like building the house of your dreams wtih your life savings on the beach and then falling apart when it’s all swept out to sea.
Opening the door to the potential that someone is different from the others…allowing yourself to entertain the possibility that perhaps, if you do everything just right, this time it will all work, is one of the biggest risks I know. How many times can one person take the same risk, get the same results, and still not learn that it’s not worth it??
Just because I don’t want kids doesn’t mean I don’t like kids and it doesn’t mean that I couldn’t one day love your son. I am not saying that we would even get to that place but I am saying that not wanting children and not loving them does not go hand in hand. Don’t make that assumption about me. It’s not fair.
Maybe you really are dealing with the chaos of your day, with the unpredictability of your job, and with the fact that your Sunday just didn’t come together the way you had imagined. Perhaps you really had valid reason to cancel tonight’s outing, and when you said you had been at the gym twice today you weren’t lying. I have a sixth sense for knowing when I am being lied to though, and today you just weren’t honest with me.
I need my jacket back. It’s in the backseat of your car.
